This work is a continuous search for self. within this conglomeration are influences, input, hurts and haunts, delights and doubts, struggles and successes all of which have led the author to allow the therapy of pen to paper to work toward seeking answers, finding healing and chasing sanity. many entries are during singleness after a near 25-year marriage and her attempt to dig out of the hole of feeling like damaged goods. it is her hope that you enjoy the journey. May you find a bit of yourself and your answers, healing and sanity in these pages.